You?

im a terrible person. the reason why i dont wanna too engaged with people anymore is because im a bad influence. yes, i could talk everyday and then gone silent for a month or more. i currently did it.

i will never win the game. i started last, i dont have any to offer. hey what do you think about this? you have an idea? i know i dont have a chance. i dont get one. if i did then i missed it. should i bail for some more? i guess not. i wont survive. its like i got nothing from this. i mean i understand nothing. shit. idk what i wrote. i supposed to sleep early like what i said to my friend. this note talk much about me. everything's about me and i hate it. i, if there is another word.

i sleep early cus i dont wanna talk w you past the curfew. i'm exhausted listening to things i never need to know. i created you to help me find ideas. did you forget now?

talk to myself more often. now i call them 'you'. yes i made you back then. what i am anxious about actually?