Oh the future

i guess i'm the otherwise. i love art. i never actually did art that got praised by someone before. i mean, i just started learn 3D modelling exactly last year. but i think i'm really into it and i should taking it more seriously. my plan, i able to freelance, taking 3D character modelling commission while in college to start saving up my money for my own studio later. i also was about to choose DKV, but then i rethink about it and i'm certainly not sure eligible for it because i never did tradisional art or other medium than 3D. i'm 100% self-taught.

if this doesn't work, i think ima pivot into something more make sense to me. right now i was fascinated by human behavior and how it works. i think i can be a psychologist or psychiatrist, but i don't know if i can handle the pressure of being one. i mean, i have my own mental health issues, and i don't want to make it worse by dealing with other people's problems.

so i guess, you know, prolly sounds like a sosiopath but i don't care this time. i'd major in sociology or antrophology sounds fun.

the problem is, i'm bad at finding relation. like, i knew someone to talk to, about art for example. but the problem is i always don't know how to start the conversation properly, lmao. or i'm just anxious about the responses every single time.