Messages not delivered pt. 2

[14/08/21] Everything has cooled down a lil bit now. Glad I got to do something that helped my mind recover. Don't know if it is because I was forced to talk to several people, it sure brings my sanity back time after time. Oh, I added timestamps for this email so you can understand the development. All kinds of advice and gibberish are like I'm talking to myself. Not that important for you to understand it, but just letting you know the way I'm thinking. Because I know this whole mail is everything about me. Like I said before, you are free to respond with something or nothing at all. (redacted).

[27/08/21] i remember few years ago when we were at the mall, around the book section (?) where you talked to strangers like you knew them before. i was amazed with that level of social skill. but now, hey, i think i able to do the same thing. the problem is just there is no one that listen to me. quite sad actually. and also when i'm kinda talkative to people i felt comfort with, they just left me. maybe i am that annoying for them, lol. well, glad i found a way to express my feelings through art. bunch of them will never be posted online cus too personal. but i'm happy i can get something out of my chest.

[30/08/21] had a convo with friend of mine today. if i kept referring friend in this email, that doesn't mean friend 'friend'. usually it's just a human who respond to my questions. the closest one probably as 'school friend'. ok, my convo was about 'where are we going in the future?' and ended up talking about uni, what's your dream jobs, yada yada. how about you? do you have any plan for your future? the closest one probably uni. where you will be? what mayor you will choose? curious about you, tho. but you never have to answer these questions like any other questions in this mail. let it be rhetorical.