I don't often feel like this

Shit, you won the bet. I still pretty much don't care. Now i'm afraid the thing doesn't stop. Any help? No? Is this that point in time, again? What I shall worry about then? You can't blame everything on me and I couldn't do it otherwise to you. We are in this together, remember?

Why are we arguing? I'm awake, I'm aware. We talked about this last night. You started this and gotta ended it yourself. I'm here because of you. If you wanna continue this conversation, this is not the safe place. I don't even trust half of them who read this. Including you.

I will never win the game. I started last, I dont have any to offer. Hey what do you think about this? You have an idea? I know I dont have a chance. I dont get one. If I did then I missed it. Should I bail for some more? I guess not. I wont survive. Its like I got nothing from this. I mean I understand nothing. shit. idk what I wrote. I supposed to sleep early like what I said to my friend. This note talk much about me. Everything's about me and I hate it. I, if there is another word.

Fuck you, eh?